December 2010
25 posts
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I have recently really started looking for interesting blogs. At first I would check my dashboard once in a while, but lately its been at least a few times a day. Just checking in to see what lovely and interesting things are roaming around on other people’s minds. This is the most fantastic hobby/therapy I’ve ever encountered. There’s not a single time I check my dashboard and...
Why you wanna break my heart again?
Why am I gonna let you try?
~John Mayer
Flowers don’t fix this. I appreciate the gesture, but you can’t just buy your way out of the consequences for the lack of regard you have for me. And telling the kid to hand me the bouquet and explain, “dad was gonna say sorry” is a tacky way to not actually apologize and involve a child in something she shouldn’t be the middle-man for. I’m now at the point...
How am I going to do this without shattering?
Just about the time the shadows call
I undress my mind and dare you to follow…
~Sara Bareilles
Dinner out,
good friend’s house.
Good company with the exception of eachother.
I can’t stand any more I keep telling myself anyway -
but then I’m still here again each morning,
at the end of every day .
I can’t imagine life without you;
This fact seems to have turned, wilted from a blossom
to a crude weapon in your arsenal.
We have been
slowly slipping
in and out...
My daughter just climbed onto my lap and said,
“Dear Mommy, I love your little nose.”
How splendid to have a six year old around to keep me giggling!
Delicious Lunar Eclipse
Not a cloud in the sky!
Star gazed, apple cidered, and snuggled the space heater.
FREEZING outside, but so worth it!
aubreyclaire-s:
The thing I love most about writing is you take your past; all the tragedies, the challenges you faced, and the losses you’ve had, and you turn it into a story. Into something completely different than what you had to start with. Something beautiful.
I am having issues with post editing. I’ve tried to make several corrections/additions to my last post but to (apparently) no avail. If my post does indeed update with these changes, this will be redundant, but I’d rather put it out here just in case.
With regard to my last post, please understand that I don’t say things to be cruel, and I don’t want to be misunderstood...
“It is too easy to watch music coming out of people’s mouths lately and you’re not quite sure if it was written with the best of intentions.”
~JM (according to ThinkExist)
I’m fairly easily impressed with efforts towards musicality. I find it intriguing when even the meekest of people can grow a pair and lay themselves out there: here is my heart, here is passion, here is me~ I am emotionally...
Can’t you see you’re the love of my life?
Believe
This is the time of year for faith, hope, and beautiful fruits of spirit to abound. I want so badly to simply bask in these things. I want so badly to believe that you do indeed love me and want to put me first in your life. I want to trust that we will get past all the turbulence and you will show me with your actions that your mouth isn’t just trying to pacify me with empty promises. I...
You’ve insisted you’ll do this task. It has been “getting done this week” for two months. I have offered to take care of it, but you INSIST. Last night you started it. Last night you threw things (including a tantrum~ you were “grumpy hungry”) and left my half of the bedroom entirely disheveled; task incomplete. One of the many things you left hanging around was...
Yesterday proved to be difficult. It was a very trying day (actually, the evening was where it nose dived). It is tough to imagine waking up with this sour feeling and making great things happen, but I will give it my best.
Uck! I hate realizing that in my own irresponsible forgetfulness I have filched on a commitment! It doesn’t happen often, but it makes me feel like an absolute jerk when it does. Poo. Can’t change the past, best to just move forward with positive endeavors. Better late than never.
My only coworker who is relatively close to my age is just sensational. We’re only about a decade apart (which is minimal in the big picture) and we’re working on a project together today. It involves lots of sorting through documents, tally marks on a white board, and an occassional staple. I’m the lucky/lazy part of our duo on the whiteboard and running to her aid for said...
OFFICIAL NEWS
My laptop woes will come to an end THIS VERY MONTH. I am more excited than I can accurately describe. “Why?” You may be asking? Because. For a gal that (just yesterday) didn’t understand terms like RAM (first word that comes to mind is Dodge, and the remaining thoughts that follow are unconnected and sexually explicit) or CPU (cardio pulmonary what?), I have now grasped the essential meaning...
You've Escaped: And in the darkened underpass →
I may be in bed with this broken flipper but I have always been involved in many events for World AIDS Day as my uncle passed away of AIDS when I was six. This tells you a lot about him and more about how even in just the earliest years of childhood someone’s courage can shape who you become as…
Bonus...
I am getting some fantastic lyrics out of the turmoil…
Well you made it a week. Now you’re back to the same shit attitude, and for what? I don’t like to think I’m quick to anger, but I knew I would be this time around. I’m so frustrated. And I’m tired. You’re making it feel like work. And while I’m surely not opposed to working hard for things that are worthwhile… a relationship shouldn’t feel like...